Gasping for air, I risk glancing over my shoulder to see if something or someone is still hot on my trail chasing me. I don't rest long; in a split second I see the big. black blob after me – relentless on giving up. The dust it kicks up only adds to my terror, so I run faster and faster. I can hear it approaching as I pick up speed. All of a sudden, I abrubtly come crashing down a long set of stairs that suspiciously appeared out of no where – causing me to instantly wake up in a cold sweat.
I'm sure everyone has had this reoccuring dream that happens right as we are beginning to reach the land of unconsciousness. I always wake up relieved that the strange blob is not actually out to get me.
This past week I've been cast as my "dream-self" running desperately, and constantly out of breath as I can't help but glance back at the terrible blob breathing down my neck. The blob that won't let me rest has been temptation to call it quits and go home. It's been the exhaustion of having to ask God every morning for strength and motivation to just get me through the day. It has been the fear of two more months being without the people I love and miss back home.
As I am being chased, sweat drips off my whole body until I am drenched because of the battle going on inside of my mind. I am drained. I can't stop the blob myself, I need that staircase to appear, or rather, I need to let it appear. The staircase in my dream, I view as God. When I call out to him, He's there in an instant and I have no choice but to take a leap of faith and run into His arms right when my battle becomes most intense. It's only when I fall into that staircase that the blob disappears and the struggle is over. That is the only thing that brings peace and rest.
So I pray that God would show up and stop the big, black blob from chasing me. I pray that I would put my trust in Him completely. I pray that I won't give in to temptation even if that is the easier option.
Romans 15:13 "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
Hebrews 12:11 "Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have benn trained by it."
