I Can’t Believe My Eyes

Coming to training camp I had never really experienced the power of the Holy Spirit. I had known it existed and I had heard stories of people speaking in tongues and having visions but I never interacted with anyone that had experienced such things.  Coming to camp I was overwhelmed with the faith kids my own age possessed. Here I was with 18-22 year old kids that were so connected with God. I didn’t necessarily know how to deal with it at first because seeing people worship with such passion kind of scared me, but seeing it changed my heart. The first worship service I was hesitant...

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Wait! What about me?!

Ever feel left out? Yea, everyone has.Well on Thursday night, I felt left out. Not with my team, but with God…. The session we had on Thursday was about the Holy Spirit and different ways God talks to us. Near the end of the talk we had time to talk to God and ask for a vision. Though I didn’t have a vision I felt the presence of God with me. For the last part of  the Listening Prayer exercise we got into our full group. Half of the group stood with their eyes closed and the other half picked someone with their eyes closed to lay a hand on them. The person with their eyes closed...

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Rid of My Disgrace

If I could use one word to sum up Nicaragua it would be: healing.   When I landed in Nicaragua I was faced with all of the problems I was running away from. Then I had sixty days to just sit and think about it. The biggest being the recovery from my sexual assault that happened my freshman year of college.   As the days here in countrypassed I found for the past 2 1/2 years I have been living as a victim. I was living in disgrace as if I should have done something differently that night. I was holding onto something because I was afraid to forget that it happened. That God would forget...

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He loves you MORE

Here in Nicaragua, I’m completely immersed in God’s creation. This island is gorgeous- the serene lake, the massive volcanoes, the starry night skies, the hidden waterfalls. I can’t help but feel so blessed to inhabit a place that is so saturated in beauty. I stand in awe every time I see Volcano Concepcion- just imagining its power, and more importantly, the power of the One who created it. Every time I sit by the lake or gaze up at the Milky Way, I feel the overwhelming peace of The Father. God’s been teaching me something, though. The crazy thing is that, while I sit...

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Sunsets

Sitting on a rock as the waves gently crash against the shore while watching the sun slowly dip towards the horizon is possibly my favorite thing ever. The wind blows my hair across my face and as I look up after shoving it behind my ear, the sky has changed. Every time I glance away and back again, it’s a new shade of color. It constantly changes from bright yellow, to deep yellow, to orange that makes it seem like the sky is on fire, then merges with pink and as the pink gets deeper it makes the surrounding clouds appear purple. Every time it changes, it gets even more beautiful. It...

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journey of fasting

I have had this longing to get closer to God and to build relationships with every member of my team, but no matter how hard I tried I felt my self close off. I didnt know what to do to keep my own emotional fears deep inside and not let them affect my relationships. These walls that I have spent years building and perfecting with my own strength to protect myself has been taken over by fear of ever getting close and vulnerable with anyone…even God. That was just it; it was my own strength and not Gods. It was then God showed me what I needed to do. I needed to fast; to allow my body to...

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