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People Need People

July 26, 2014
Adventures
Reflections

In another post I talked a bit about my depression. Well, it’s time to talk a bit more about it. In high school I was severely depressed from my sophomore year onward. In college I have been less severely depressed. Let me give you an idea of what “severe” and “less severe” means. In high school starting from maybe halfway through sophomore year to the end of senior year suicide was not a monthly thought for me, it was a daily or hourly thought. I would dream of ways to end my life. Ways that would leave as little mess as possible. Ways that I could disappear...

I’m Sorry

July 26, 2014
Adventures
Reflections

Lately God has been bringing me through a lot of emotional realizations. The first realization was that I have been engaging in some pretty serious self-loathing throughout the years. At first I thought I only hated parts of myself. Specifically I hated how dependable I am because I often feel used by other people because of it. So I have been asking God the last few weeks what other parts of myself I have tried to separate from myself, and two weeks ago, he told me. It was at team time one night. We were doing “private corporate worship.” This means that we all get out our...

No More Regrets

July 26, 2014
Adventures
Reflections

Two weeks ago God showed me that I have been hating myself for at least seven years. I hated a lot of parts of my life when I was going through them, but then God showed me that my self-loathing wasn’t just in the past, it was still happening. Not that I still hate every part of myself. It’s a rare night now that I give into the despair and speak the word worthless over and over and over again. But I still hate myself. To be specific, my past self. After a lot of people give their testimonies they say, “But you know if I could do it all over again I would, mistakes and...

Rid of My Disgrace

July 23, 2014
Adventures
Admissions

If I could use one word to sum up Nicaragua it would be: healing. When I landed in Nicaragua I was faced with all of the problems I was running away from. Then I had sixty days to just sit and think about it. The biggest being the recovery from my sexual assault that happened my freshman year of college. As the days here in countrypassed I found for the past 2 1/2 years I have been living as a victim. I was living in disgrace as if I should have done something differently that night. I was holding onto something because I was afraid to forget that it happened. That God would...

There is Power in Prayer

Throughout my Christian walk, and here in Nicaragua, God has revealed to me the power of prayer. Without prayer, how would we communicate to God? How would our faith grow? How would change come? God yearns for us to express our need of Him to Him. The action we take in relationship to God is prayer. If there’s no action, how do you expect to see results? If we aren’t in open communication with God daily, and not expressing to Him our need of Him, what is our faith? “Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be...

He loves you MORE

July 11, 2014
Adventures
Admissions

Here in Nicaragua, I’m completely immersed in God’s creation. This island is gorgeous- the serene lake, the massive volcanoes, the starry night skies, the hidden waterfalls. I can’t help but feel so blessed to inhabit a place that is so saturated in beauty. I stand in awe every time I see Volcano Concepcion- just imagining its power, and more importantly, the power of the One who created it. Every time I sit by the lake or gaze up at the Milky Way, I feel the overwhelming peace of The Father. God’s been teaching me something, though. The crazy thing is that, while I...

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