the awkward laugh

this blog is suppose to be about training camp, so ill try to make it short and sweet.

first i have a terrible fake laugh and you would think that being a server i would have a great fake laugh because you always have a laugh for when someone says something awkward at your table.

Have you ever got annoyed of your own laugh, my laugh has been so try hard, and i dont know if its coming from nervousness, or awkwardness, or lack of creativity to carrying on the conversation. Meeting a bunch of new people is so interesting to me and you  get to know their stories,personalities, their struggles, their strenghs and their humor. some times on mission trips you get to bond so quickly but its hard to feel that true comfort with them at the begining, you know that comfort where your wierd quarks come out. Like stopping your feet and jerking back in forth when your laughing (silently) but very hard. But ive been very blessed because i have a supper awesome team, and my leaders are way cool too and Ive already done my true embarrassing laugh one too many times already. Which is a huge relief because i hate that awkard-forced-im-only-laughing-because-i-dont-know-what-else-to-say-laugh. so bottom line, i have a really great team and im having a lot of fun getting to know them.

ps
i also blog on tumbler, mostly pictures and few words and that is mostly because im terrible with gramar and constructing normal and accepted sentences.