I've experienced God meeting me with love, compassion, and grace in the midst of my doubt and questioning. God’s love for me is so great! He’s put some amazing people in my life before this trip and for this trip. I’m bonding quite well with a few of my teammates and am looking forward to growing closer to the rest of them. God has been continuously giving and showing me His compassion for His people. A desire to share that Jesus loves you to Nicaragua has been placed on my heart. Ephesians 1:7-8 àgrace.
Even though I have experienced great things, from dancin’ it up with mah team, to having long conversations about my life with others, to feeling God’s presence all around, there have been moments of doubt. Sometimes I have a “flesh” moment. We all do. I was questioning if I’m going to be a big enough influence. Does that even matter? Do I have to reach fifty million people? No. I was reminded during a session that even if I only reach one person, if I only help and heal one person, then I’ve shown how much God loves that one person to send me all the way from Shippensburg to Nicaragua. I really hope I reach many more, but if I don’t that’s OK.
I’ve experienced questioning God. “Are you sure I’m meant to go on this trip?” Each time that thought passes though, God reminds me of the process getting here. I’m so thankful for everyone who went out of their way, got so excited for me, and chose to help make my desire to go on this trip possible. I’m so excited to see how God will work through me and change me. He will break my heart and fill it with His love, grace, compassion, and freedom. That's what's up.
