Connie, the lovely lady in the picture below, informed me this morning, as she stood with a stack of bags, that she was running away from home.
This of course wasn’t the easiest thing to understand and she didn’t look terribly upset so I figured it was just a young girl stage or that maybe she was upset that another child was being adopted that day.
I told her I loved her and that I would miss her (No me gusta no Connie). I learned later that she really just has a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and that she will be gone all day.
Wow! What a misunderstanding! I’m really glad I didn’t freak out although maybe I should have in case she was serious…God had my back!
One thing I have really noticed lately is that I am missing out on a really big part of my relationship with Christ.
My communication with Him is a little skewed. I enjoy praying with the group and praying with someone for a particular reason, but I realize that I don’t have one-on-one talk with Him.
It reminds me of my communication with Connie.
I can tell her good morning, ask her how she is, even tell her a bit about me.
But I can’t tell her how I really feel. Or what makes me excited. Or what makes me scared.
When I can’t understand her, I just say “Yo no se,” smile, and continue on.
I feel like I have been doing that with God lately.
I tell Him how I am, thank Him for blessings, and maybe ask a question, but I don’t really go deep with Him.
It’s strange because I am totally loving our Bible study now (Hebrews) and I feel like I am growing a lot through the books I have been reading (Perelandra and Not a Fan). I feel like I am understanding more and more each day about God and his grace and mercy. But yet something isn’t right.
I’m not talking with God.
I’m not making time exclusively with Him.
It’s great to talk to Him if the rest of the group is or if someone mentions it, but otherwise, He’s forgotten.
And hey, that’s not ok.
Christ didn’t forget ME when He died on the cross. He forgave MY sins too.
And even better than that, He filled ME with the Holy Spirit so that when I don’t understand something, I don’t have to say “Yo no se.”
I can simply just simply ask.
