How do you release what you’ve held onto so tightly? How do you give up something so close to your heart? How do you cut someone out of your life that has always been there for you?
That’s what I have been trying to figure out. For a year, I have fought against letting a very special person go. Letting this person out of my life. Being obedient to God and just walking away.
How do you do that? How do you completely stop fighting for this person and just leave them?
If you spend 24/7 with a group of 11 other girls, you find out what they’re struggling with, what and who is important to them, and what they need prayer for. But the recurring theme is letting certain things and certain people go; with just completely giving them to the Lord and leaving it at that.
But this person…. one of the best friends I have ever had, one of the closest people to my heart, one of the strongest constants in my life? Why this person? I have been so afraid to lose this friend; to not have this person in my life. And I had already surrendured my friend and laid this friend before the Lord. Why did He still want me completely let go?
Having very little or no internet, almost no music, almost no tv, and very few distractions leaves a whole lot of free time to just read your Bible and hear from the Lord. And He has been more clear than ever about letting this person go. He’s been encouraging me to let Him be my constant everything. To be the person I always go to when things are troubling. To look to Him as my best friend ever. To let Him be the closest person in my heart.
I love the song “Let It Go” from “Frozen”. And I guess God knows that, because the lyric that keeps coming up is; “It’s funny how some distance makes everything seem small. And the fears that once controlled me can’t get to me at all”.
God has been revealing to me just the hold that fear has had on my heart at the thought of losing this friend. And fear is not of the Lord. And if I am going to seek after the Lord, then I have to lay my fears before the Lord, and just Let It Go.
“Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you”- Psalm 37:4
“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need”- Matthew 6:33
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