for Jesus! phew. probably worried ya'll at first ( I have some southern friends that say ya'll a lot so it's just kind of my new word of choice…I don't actually say it out loud though, yet). But, just to clear the air I'm still going on this mission trip.
Let's be honest, training camp has been pretty intense. And exhausting. And challenging. But, in really awesome ways. I guess I didn't expect to experience any of that until I actually got to the field…but thank the Lord I did. The days are running together already, but we had this great message/activity on Surrender. Surrending anything we are hanging onto more tightly that Jesus – any fears, doubts, items, anything – that would hold us back from fully receive all the wonderfulness that God has for us. He has great gifts for all of us if only we open our eyes and our hearts fully and completely to Him and just receive it all.
So, God just was really convicting me about some fears/doubts about being away from home and what I was I was prioritizing above God and so I give up. I surrender. I surrender all of my worries, fears, doubts, insecurities and other priorities to God so I can focus on His plan for me. I choose to put Him first. I want to focus on what He has planned for this ministry and the gifts He has planned for me when I return home and focus on building relationships with my awesome to brothers and sisters in Christ. My family just keeps growing! God is so awesome that way. To trust that He has it all worked out perfectly for home, for me, and for my team in Nicaragua. Everything! He is the Creator. The perfect Orchestrator. So, I will just let Him do what He does best. Life.
I give up. I surrender to you, Lord!
