Continuously Asking The Lord

On Monday, we did something called ATL (Ask the Lord).  Sunday night, we were praying to figure out where we thought the Lord wanted us to go. In all honesty, I was so distracted and not really listening during prayer, but one of my teammates, Katy, said something about going to a health clinic and I just felt very strongly about going there too. We had no plan other than going to a health clinic and praying for guidance throughout the day.
 
Monday morning, 2 teammates (Brittany and Katy) and I got a cab and asked the driver to take us to a health clinic, whatever one he knew. We ended up at a clinic that was pretty middle class. I felt awkward at first just sitting in the waiting room. After about an hour of being there, I was sitting next to this woman. I really felt like I should talk to her, but I had no idea what to say. About a minute later, she started talking to me. She wanted to practice her English. That was a blessing because I would have been able to understand the gist of her story in Spanish, but I was able to get so much more out of it since I didn’t have to translate. She started sharing with me how she was in a car accident 6 years ago where she broke her spine. She couldn’t walk and doctors all across the country told her that she never would be able to again. She goes to the doctors every single day and has been doing that for the past 6 years. But, a year ago, she began to walk again with the aid of a walker. She believes the truth that God helped her and healed her. She said that it is amazing what He has done for her. She said she used to be so sad, but now her life is filled with so much more happiness and joy and that is all because of the Lord.
 
This was obviously a really awesome conversation, but what does it have to do with my life and where I am at right now? Well, for the past 3 weeks I have been struggling to speak. Not because I tend to be shy and introverted, but because it physically hurts to talk. I always lose my voice, it hurts to have a long conversation, and I am always coughing. I have found myself questioning why the Lord would take away something that I already struggle with, like talking a lot. And in all honesty, I don’t know the answer yet. One thing I do know though, and was reminded of through this conversation with the woman in the health clinic, is that God is so much bigger than our trials. He is AMAZING and POWERFUL and SOVEREIGN.  He heals us, although sometimes not in the way we hope for. Because I don’t know the outcome yet, it is really easy to become anxious about it. But God is good and can use our pain for something so much greater than we can see. I know that in all of this, God is simply just drawing me closer to Himself. I have to rely on Him, have joy in all circumstances, and trust in His perfect timing, no matter what the outcome is.