"Oh God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace. I am shamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, so that i may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, "Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away." Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where i have wandered so long."
These are the words of A.W. Tozer in the Pursuit of God. I read this in the very inspiring book Crazy Love by Francis Chan, and honestly for me, these words were exactly the words that my heart was crying out to my Father not just this very day, but for months now. Ive taken a day to fast from talking to anyone other than ministry opportunities, so in every instance where i think to myself "wow, If only i could talk today" ive taken time to just sit in the presence of God and pray, begging Him for his grace, giving him glory where He commands demands and deserves glory and praise, or to just sit and listen to what Hes been wanting to tell me, his son. And going back to what Mr. Tozer wrote, it gave me perspective, that I don't just want to know my Father, my King more, but i want to WANT Him, I long to filled with more LONGING for him, I truly thirst to be made all the more THIRSTY for my Lord. God has put the desire in my heart to seek him and to call to him, but I need to want to desire Him more. Our Lord doesn't deserve my scraps, my prayers thrown up to him when im half asleep just because i feel bad that i haven't prayed enough that day, He needs everything i got. How many blessings go without thanks or even unnoticed. For example, If a friend and i were out for a stroll and all of a sudden my friend trips and stumbles to the ground. First of all, itd be kind of funny, but not really! because my friend just scrapped their knee. Now i extend my hand and yank him up from the gravel on which he lays, i also notice that his knee is scrapped up pretty bad, so i rip of a piece of my NEW shirt because there is no Band-Aid in sight, and i tend to his wound. His knee is so bad that its hard for him to continue our walk so i heroically throw him over my shoulder and carry him back to his house. As i get him up to his steps, He just walks off without saying a word. Now i know this MAY be a bit over the top, but i feel like this is what i do to my "best friend" all the time. So today i spent time thanking and praising my Father who deserves way more than just a day of praise, but i figure hey, im going to continue this everyday. Find something that will remind you constantly to give God what He commands, demands, and deserves each and every day.
Trust in the LORD and do good;
Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the LORD;
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the LORD,
Trust also in Him, and He will do it. Psalm 37:3-5
